Hillsong has a song called “Desert Song.” For some reason, I have never liked that song very much, but anyway, there is a line I do love in the song that says “My God is a God who provides.” For months now, whenever worries about Ireland and the future have crept into my head, God always reminds me of this line! Now it’s almost second nature for me to repeat it to myself when I begin to worry. The conversation in my head goes something like this:
What if I run out of money and have to come home? My God is a God who provides.
How am I going to make friends? My God is a God who provides.
What if I can’t find a place to live? My God is a God who provides.
Yesterday a check came in the mail for me from my doctors’ office. Not only have I not been to the doctor in months, but there is no explanation for why they owe me money, nor did the check contain an explanation. The amount was about equal to what I make in a week at Target. My God is a God who provides.
Having enough money for Ireland has really been something I have been worried about, lately especially. There have been a lot of costs in getting the visa and everything it entails, probably more than I foresaw. Throughout this whole process, though, I have had an inner assurance that I will go, no matter what. Even if I don’t have much money. Even if I don’t have a job or a place to stay beforehand. That doesn’t mean that I’m not working hard, and not looking for jobs and trying to find a place a stay, because I am doing all of those things every day! But God has assured me that He will go before me and with me even if I am taking nothing else. My lack of plans leaves Him all the more room to show His glory.
My God is a God who provides. My God is a God who provides.